The Memory of Waves

“…rising up resilient…”

Once a time ago, not so long ago

along sandy seashelled shores

when happy hands built seashore castles

where merry mermaids happily

came out to playfully congregate 

their hair made glistening with sun and wet seaweed twisted on conch shell combs

playing a game of ring toss 

with surprised starfish

This day arriving cloudy with a spot of grey

she closed her eyes

braving it all recalling blistering sands 

rising craggy up from between her toes 

skin crawling trying to get above from out beneath emotional waves’ ebb and flow

As she gathers speed towards the water

A deep buzz unsettling her head relentlessly gnawing away beneath surface of freckles and old tan lines from last summer’s rompings

Misty salt water comes bubbling up popping with foam seemingly in willingly surrender

breaking the rising waves by a seagull 

retrieving its wiggling supper in clenched beak

Toggling towards the sky rocking the boat and dislodging anchor unsettling discomfort a canoe without paddles in meandering float inches aimlessly towards the horizon of unknown destinations

Digging up the abyss

Where once so buried

Now feelings rise

Cresting whitecaps

Throwing mist to her eyes

Bursting towards the surface

Like a breaching whale 

She holds her breath under water now

count down to nearly three, something gathers

from the gallows of her soul

gumption….gritting teeth….she pulls up through the ocean’s rim and sees her reflection 

Then like a gale force sudden she rebels the

Tritons of circumstances stabbing at her like greedy man-o-war stinging at her flesh 

raising it into crests pushing up resilient

Causing the blisters to erupt

Emerging exposed

Salted wounds open and raw

Tumbling, stumbling at first nevertheless 

forging forward 

Now inner truths exposed

Like open oysters 

exposing pearl

ready to heal

Preparing to once more

play along the shore

She rides the wave